It’s exactly how it sounds – I have no idea what I’m doing and feel like my life is falling to pieces. It was going to be “Indecision,” because I kept hearing the song “Falling To Pieces,” by Faith No More (©1989 Rhino Records – hands down my favorite FNM song – that bass line! – with Woodpeckers From Mars occupying a close second), in my head while I was painting – or rather, trying to paint.
As I said to my long-suffering husband, I am losing it. Seeing as I’m a put-it-all-out-there kind of gal, I’m not going to bother sugar-coating here. Our real estate saga is WEARING ME DOWN. If we hit one more damn snag, I’m going to have to employ elephant tranquilizers or something. Even the most enlightened of us have to deal with stress that hits a tender, sensitive trigger, and, baby, I am nowhere near being the Most Enlightened One. The man asked me what I was losing, and I said, “The ability to paint. I have no clue what I’m doing.”
He wisely said that I’m just too wrapped up in the stress of our never-ending move. I mentioned that I was painting to relieve that stress, and he retorted, “You’re not letting it go, and it can’t flow through you if you don’t let it go.”
I may take a bit of a break from painting and finish up some knitting projects. I don’t know. Standing and staring a canvas and feeling clueless isn’t my idea of fun. Maybe I need another salt soak. Or a vat of red wine.
In any case, enjoy the video linked above – I personally think it’s one of the best videos of all time. Hilarious and full of color with a great song, what could be better?
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